Oh Tyler, I never thought I could miss anyone as much as I miss you. You were, still are, & forever will be, so, so dear to this family. Often times when I have a dream about you, it's always that you have come back to see all of us. But somehow in the dream I always know you can't stay, and then I wake up with my heart aching. On August 3rd, 2010, I knew then that that was the worst day of my life, as it was for our whole family. I can't express the longing I feel to hear you laugh again. The way I hear it in my head just doesn't do the real thing justice. Won't you just laugh for us again?... Adria & I were watching home videos not too long ago, and it was Easter when we were all much younger...we were singing and dancing at your old house and you stood there in the living room with your curly hair and huge grin playing this plastic guitar. I laughed and cried at the same time. I miss the close cousin relationship you, Caitlin, Adria, & I had. I miss you laughing so hard when I'd randomly say, "MMM Beefy!", which will make no sense to anyone else except us. All these memories are more precious to me than I could ever tell you. I used to picture the four of us cousins growing up & being in each other's weddings, taking our children on vacation together, and having so many more hilarious and wonderful memories to make. Sometimes the realization that that will never happen now is more than I can handle. But despite all of this, I have faith in the fact that you are watching over us. I know you see what's going on, and I hope you see me right now, right this very moment, giving you a smile. Because I think that's what you'd want me to do...what you'd want all of us to do. Smile while remembering you, because that's just how you were...fun-loving, and funny, and a huge piece of the heart of our family. I will see you again. That's a promise. I love you, I miss you, Ashton